I love metaphysics and nonduality! My passion is a scavenger hunt in western and eastern philosophies and spiritual traditions to find the commonalities among them. I have found that one and the same truth is expressed in all of them, and that they all differ only in the outward form of their expressions. My search is primarily inspired and shaped by Vedanta Metaphysics and Husserlian Phenomenology, particularly Husserl's method of Phenomenological Reduction which allows one to access the transcendental dimension of consciousness. I started my blog NOEMAYA in 2013 to share my findings and experiences. I also started a book series on nonduality and published my first book called "Nondual Perspectives on Quantum Physics" in 2014. I have a degree in theoretical physics from the University of Maryland and currently teach physics and mathematics to high school students.
Fall is inevitable, for it provides the ground for the rise of the new types. But one can choose to fall a graceful fall where one gives and elevates others instead of a fall of which no one has ever heard. … More If You Have to Fall, at least Fall with Grace
In the dim halo around Babushka’s rocking chair, a man pleads for a single nod that will never come. His monologue drifts between heartbreak and the deeper terror of becoming irrelevant in a universe that refuses to speak. What unfolds is not a search for comfort but a confrontation with silence itself—the kind that swallows every question and leaves a man facing the truth that meaning is never given, only begged for, and rarely received. … More A Home Built on Quicksand
I speak to you, my comrade, of a state that’s veiled to you from time immemorial; but I must speak carefully or else my words can veil you even further, and that’s not due to the influence of the words but of how you are conditioned to receive and comprehend them. Before I proceed, I … More World as Veil: When presence itself becomes the concealment
A descent into the barren, valueless ground where boredom exposes everything as equal and directionless. It follows how distinctions like good and evil lose their meaning, how our comforting narratives fall apart, and how that neutrality—initially nauseating—reveals a place where a person can finally act from their own source rather than any external call. … More Where Nothing Calls: Living on the Belly of Being – A Phenomenological Rant on Boredom as the Last Territory of Freedom
A man can drown in incense and mantras while his life rots around him. There is no prayer strong enough to lift the weight of a lazy body or an undisciplined mind. This piece explores the quiet truth that no spiritual practice can replace the ordinary work of self-respect — the cleaning, moving, striving, and caring that give the spirit somewhere to stand. … More There Is No Spiritual Substitute for Laziness: the spirit has no reach in the idle mind & body
The soul, weary of the endless turning of worlds, questions Life itself, demanding meaning, rest, and an end to the game. But Life, ever patient and amused, reminds the soul that it was the one who chose to play, who wrote the rules and hid behind the veil of forgetfulness. In its hiding, the universe was born; in its seeking, time began. Yet when the seeker at last finds the one who hid, the discovery shatters both, revealing there were never two players, only one Life, playing with itself through all forms of being. What remains then is not struggle, nor purpose, but play—pure, endless, self-knowing play. … More The Eternal Game of Hide-and-Seek & The Dissolution of Duality
We spend our lives waiting for permission to feel joy—opening and closing the gates of our own happiness at every sign of approval or rejection. But joy was never something to earn. It was always ours, flowing beneath the surface, waiting to be reclaimed by the only one who could ever unlock it: ourselves. … More The Permission to Feel Our Own Bliss: Reclaiming what was never anyone’s to give
The most dangerous manipulation isn’t loud or cruel, it’s gentle. It hides behind smiles and small favors, pretending to care while quietly asking for approval in return. This kind of kindness doesn’t come from love, it comes from fear, the fear of not being seen. It gives to be noticed, not to nourish. True kindness doesn’t need witnesses or repayment; it flows freely because it’s full. … More The Leash Made of Silk: The psychology of manipulative care & kindness
Fear of feelings is really fear of losing control — a lack of self-trust. We mistake emotions for commands, believing they dictate our actions. This Pathocrat’s trap breeds paralysis and doubt. The cure is not repression but recalibration: keeping small promises, acting despite moods, and gathering new evidence of self-trust. In doing so, we discover a space between feeling and action — the birthplace of freedom, responsibility, and inner strength. … More The Ascent of the Inner Man: A meditation on fear, self-trust, and emotional sovereignty
What is man as a phenomenon? Is he a being that’s hasting toward non-being, a ghostly figure that has projected all the being he has and he can’t tolerate into and beyond a non-being horizon? Nay. Man is nothing in haste. Man is the very hasting of Being; he is hasting itself and not a being in haste. That’s why he’s always torn, torn in between here and there, for he can’t get that there out of his stupid head. He is as horizontally stretched between the opposite poles of embodiment and self-abandonment as he is vertically stretched between heaven and hell. He is everywhere and everywhen but here and now. He is a lunatic chasing shadows of himself. … More La Fretta dell’Essere: L’uomo e il miraggio del “Là”
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